Livin in a world full of darkness.

2009-07-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

its been for a few months now,
but i have finally found the answer.
its heart breaking but i will survive.
:)
hang on~

2009-07-20T23:37:00.001+08:00

im becoming a bitch more and more nowadays.
damnnnn.
dont irritate me people.

2009-07-15T00:18:00.003+08:00

sometimes everything in the world seems like a joke.
seriously with so many things going on i can really just explode.
its like this.
ever since we enter poly,
we arent really happy anymore.
look at karyan.
ever since she entered MCM, she's become a total complaining machine.
the people and work in MCM has drove my BFF to insanity.
look at yingying,
every since she enter TP,
she has turn into an emo freak.
the people and work has drove my last BFF to hell also.
ARE THESE WORK AND PEOPLE TRYING TO DRIVE ME CRAZY ALSO?
CHEER UP Y3 AND KY!

I NEED YOU GUYS TO PULL THROUGH POLY LIFE. :(

2009-07-11T22:50:00.001+08:00

I got a loser barking at my tagboard without his name AGAIN.
but anyways,

AISEH AISEH AISEH MELISSA IS BACK SIOLLLL!
:D
:D
MEET UP SOOOOON!

2009-07-10T00:01:00.005+08:00

pathetic much?
trying to make the girl you like jealous by doing useless stuff like this don't exactly make you a hero.
what a loser.
of course you can hide in the dark and talk big you coward.
i see the big L on your head man.
if you have the guts, then stop doing stupid stuff like this.
LOSER.

2009-07-09T16:18:00.001+08:00

to that person whom is using my name to agitate my certain friend.
let LIMBU tell you that i will not tolerate this nonsense and if my friend tells me this again,
I WILL PERSONALLY HUNT YOU DOWN AND FRY YOU ALIVE.

2009-07-06T23:50:00.002+08:00

i'm so sick and tired of people asking stuff from me.
i'm so sick and tired of being drag into useless stuff.
i'm so sick and tired of people selfishness.
i'm so sick and tired of you fooling around with me.
i'm so sick and tired with your excuses.
i'm getting fed up with school and alot of people.
especially you.

2009-07-01T01:24:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK!

i have the mood to blog today because i had a hell of a fun day today!
KY and YY made my day so much happier :D
all those stupid talks and laughter.
love those 2 bi.tches. :D
meet up again soon!

2009-06-07T02:01:00.003+08:00

I've figured out you.
I guess its good in a way but i don't like what i've found out.
damn.

2009-06-06T21:46:00.000+08:00

SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED THE PAST FEW DAYS.
well, not really like the past few more like the past few weeks.
and im gonna die from the stress soon.
not to mention year 2 sem 2 is more FIERCE.
someone bless me.
OH MANNNNNN.

2009-05-21T22:12:00.002+08:00

i don't know why i'm so disappointed.
maybe it was because i had higher expectations of you?
i guess i always had..
sometimes i think its good for me to feel this disappointed;
i learn from my lesson.

insignificant little being struggling to survive in this vast vast world filled with uncertainties and opportunities.

2009-05-21T10:15:00.002+08:00

OH EM GEE MY ANGEL JUST GAVE ME SOMETHING AGAIN!
I SWEAR SHE'S THE NICEST ANGEL IN THE CLASSS!
HER CARDS ARE ALL SO CUTE AND FILLED WITH SINCERITY!
SEEE!

AWWW AND SHE HAS A BISCUIT ATTACHED TO IT BEHIND THE ENVELOPEEE!
and the CARD IS SO CUTE!
but i wil not SHOW it her. xp
THANK YOUUUU ANGEL!

2009-05-21T02:32:00.002+08:00

so here i am, to blog again.
the time is now 2.30am, and im trying to finish up as much of the fp assignment as i can.
i know what to write and all, but what i write is still not enough to hit the word limit.
okay i think i m too tired now so im babbling nonsense alr.

2009-05-20T23:50:00.003+08:00

its the same old mundane life in the Ng's residence today.
the only exciting thing is the smallest member in the Ng's residence has got kick out of the house.
no,i'm kidding.
she went for a camp.
and so while the smallest member of Ng's family sets out to embark on a camp filled with adventures and opportunities, the second smallest member of the family stays back in the boring old residence to rot.
Literally.
Ng's residence will like to wish the smallest member all the best and try not to come back looking like a vampire.

2009-05-20T00:16:00.000+08:00

blogger is nuts.
i dont know why.
anyway, im really dying.
i dont know why but i feel this week is VERY VERY STRESSFUL.
if i can survive this week maybe i will be reincarnated as a god.
watch out for KAITING DEITY.
and YEAH!
im going to HENDERSON WAVE with YOYO on FRIDAY!
HAHA SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT LA!
like finally can relax!
i feel so tied up man.
:(
maybe i should just drown myself.:(
and the epic pic of the day!
the result of two idiots spending time in DAISO HAHA.

BYEBYE!

2009-05-17T23:35:00.002+08:00

im suddenly feeling EMO now.
i guess past does have a certain effect on people huh?
especially people like me..

2009-05-16T20:56:00.002+08:00

yesterday was JUN RI birthday!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JUN RI!

it wasn't exactly the best celebration,
but i guess what matter the most os that you are celebrating with your bunch of close friends.
right?
6 years of friendship and still counting my friend!
:D

2009-05-15T14:48:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a long day.
SUPER TIRING.
bag SUPER heavy + laptop + assignments.
and i have to meet ah heng after school.
and did i say how dense he can be for a guy?
i hinted him 10 times i think, for him to carry my laptop HAHA.
he's not a gentleman at alll man!
anyway happy graduation ah heng!

and yesterday was GUOYING'S BIRTHDAY.

happy 19th birthday GUO YING!
i've known him for 5 years alr.
feels so funny, seems like yesterday that i just met him.
GY has been a very nice guy to me, sometimes like a mentor.
he's been a pillar of support for me ever since i know him in ULP.
he's given me great advice and without him, i probably won't even be a VI.
if i didn't become a VI, it means i wont have such wonderful batchmates like 0908.
0908 is a part of me, and GY belongs to one of them.
thank you GUOYING,
HAAPY BIRTHDAY.:)

2009-05-12T22:58:00.005+08:00

Today I woke up feeling happy. :)
am still happy too.
went for dinner at The Rail Mall with yang and botak heng after work today.
We seriously couldn't stop laughing man.
And gosh, i swear everything we said today is all M18 and above.
i wonder why we couldn't stay off those topics.-.-

something i thought was funny few weeks back..

weiqian:eh tomorrow you better wake up when i reach your house ah..
kaiting:i think i won't...
weiqian:you better if not i will TEAR YOUR HOUSE DOWN.

i dropped and laughed like mad.
somehow it sounds very funny to me.
like, how do you tear my house down?
with your bare hands?
LOL.

:)

P.S: look at botak heng's face when me and yang caught a surprise shot at him!

woohooo!

2009-05-11T00:03:00.002+08:00

i think i like you.
fish man i just cant get you out of my mind.
but somehow i know like usual,
things will always blow,
or i will just lose my chance if i dont ask.

if i really like you,
what should i do?

2009-05-09T05:14:00.002+08:00

i wish i had a heart-wrenching love story to tell;
something so sad and painful that it will make people tear;
something so sad and painful that i will die in it.

of course i have none,
my life isn't a drama.

but sometimes i do regret,
and it seems that my regrets are catching up now.

im starting to live in fear,
starting to fear that i will do something to regret a few years later.

should i take chances?

sometimes i feel lonely and sad and talk emo shi.at here but im perfectly fine. :)

2009-05-08T01:26:00.002+08:00

my conscience is telling me to blog, asking me to update about my life.
and then i was planning to write a whole long exciting post about my life when i realise my life isn't really that exciting to be blog out.

OH THE IRONYYYY~

on a side note, i cant believe there's this SUPER DUPER ULTRA MEGA VERY cute child in my childcare that looks like a clone of takumi when he was younger.
its almost like the blur version of 2 year old takumi.
but that's not the point, the point was,
this child is made out of PURE CUTENESS!
omg his sparkling eyes and cheeks and the way he smiles at me and how he fits his little hand into mine is so...awww~
BET YOU PEOPLE WON'T UNDERSTAND.

and this cute little boy has a older brother!
who is so sweeeet!
he actually remembers me and smiled and greeted me!(kids actually forget people quite easily if they dont like them or sth like that, you have to make an impression)
so i guess i made an impression huh?
and the cutest thing was,
this older brother, known as XY,says that his younger brother, YX (no pun, that's the initials of their name) is OLDER than him.
SO FUNNY AND CUTE!
let's MELT PEOPLE.
let's MELT.

and then there's this little cute boy named Li Heng, and i got a shock of my life because i just met this guy called Li Heng the day before.
so i went online and talk to the BIG Li Heng and told him about my discovery.
you know its no big deal to find someone who have the same name as you right?
cause after all the earth is inhabited by humans, and we all have names. (okay that's not the point)
so the point was, he say it is super madness for me to be able to find someone with the same name as him cause his name is like freaking rare!
SO YAYYY!
YOU GO KAITING!

and this mundane long post just about conclude my exciting life BUT WAIT.

i think life with people like;

KARYAN
YINGYING
GEENA
YANGMENG
ERVIN
NIGEL
ZHIXIAN
STEVEN
JUNRI
ANDY
ZIQIAN
GUOTING
CHUAN LIANG
not forgetting those crazy people in my clique,

MAKES MY WORLD GOES ROUND.

That's all it matters isn't it?

:)

P.S: i saw my fat cousin today and i think i missed him :(
but he's too busy for me nowadays.
:(

2009-04-26T23:03:00.003+08:00

some funny stunts yzx did when we were webcamming in school one day.

that's all FOLKS!

i promise to update HK trip soooonnn!

2009-03-27T02:05:00.002+08:00

you know sometimes, you just get so tired of being disappointed again and again, you decided to just let things go once and for all?

i feel like that now.

2009-03-23T01:26:00.001+08:00

ZOMG 8 DAYS MORE TO HONG KONG BABYYY!

and chalet was a BLAST~
celebrated geena bday and scandals were born.
UPDATE SOOON!

2009-03-08T00:07:00.001+08:00

what if there never was a beginning?
we always look back and regret.

i had a dream about you again.
should i be worried?
does it mean something?
miss seeing you.

2009-03-05T02:05:00.001+08:00

well at least i'm happy today. :)

simple things with yy can made me laugh like mad and forget about all my worries.

can't wait to go to hk with her :)

2009-03-03T01:46:00.002+08:00

i guess its okay for you to shoot me down like that.
after all he's closer to you than i am.
but i think before you start to say anything you should see things from my point of view?
more than being angry, i'm disappointed.
VERY VERY.
so what if he chose that habit by himself.
can you deny the fact that he did it partly due to influence?
you know what, forget it.
everyone's gonna shoot me down again.
whatever "get use to it" and "try to accept it" are bullshit.
if anyone thinks i'm being a bi.atch then fine.
if being angry cause i care about you as a friend is wrong then let's forget about being friends.
i'm still angry.

i won't try to understand.

2009-02-22T02:45:00.002+08:00

hello.
what can i say?
today exam has passed and i'm happy,from the bottom of my heart:D
today after the paper, celebrated with the classmates at suntec pastamania.
though it was my first time there,sad to say i didn't like it AT ALL.
so i didn't eat anything at all for lunch.):
though i left after that(which equals to do nothing at all)
i still find it nice to come out with the classmates once in a while(:

so i slept at home all the way till dinner, then came to bing house for the RED EGGS!
tomorrow is dear claudia's one month old, so yeahhh we're gonna have fun!
she's a little princess(:

and yesterday(friday),
i woke up feeling excited that i could finally eat the soba,
only to realise that after all my efforts were wasted,
cause of the stupid wasabi in the SOBA!
dang i was so angry i sms karyan to ask to to accompany me to SAKAE which i treated her cause i felt guilty for asking her out all of a sudden.
seeee i'm soooooo nice and kindddd.
and then we walked around JP and had fun talking about loads of stuffs:D
she bought a pair of pumps which i think she's really satisfied with and i bought a beach ball for my boy!:D
while on the way home,
we saw TKM that monkey:D

and not long before, i was chatting with ying ying happily on the phone.
i like this kind of feeling.
i love my friends.
i am blessssed!
okay but ky and y3 will know of my unhealthy addiction to sth):
want to kick the habit away):
till then!

KAITING IS HAPPPPY!

2009-02-19T03:10:00.002+08:00

starting to feel blissful again.
the little things in life made me happy.

i still have a regret though..

2009-02-14T01:13:00.002+08:00

I'M IMPOSSIBLE TO CONTACT DURING HOLIDAYS.

guess i should let everyone knows that before all of you goes mad tryong to find me.
i dont go emo in a corner or whatsoever,its just that i dont ON my phone at all when i'm NUAING at home during HOLIDAYS.
i'm so sorry peeps.i just forgot about my phone's existance.

KILL ME IF YOU WANT.

and when i go out,my phone also gets neglected like nobody's business.

I'M SORRY AGAIN.

it can't be help, i don't feel that my phone is very important nowadays.

on another note,tmr is V DAY!
hoho im gonna spent my day working my ass away.
and nope,im not sad (maybe lonely haha).
i guess we get used to things after a while dont we?

going on a diet and im determined.
i hit 4 le.:D

2009-02-11T23:28:00.003+08:00

OH HELLLO!
i'm back for more frolic and fun!:D
school has (un)officially ended and im happy with my life now!
i just hope i dont get fat.zzz.
and what A SURPRISE!
saw XIAO PENG today while i was at bugis.
OMG HE TURNED INTO A DIFFERENT PERSON.
a case of split personality is suspected but i shall let the matter rest.
:D arent you happy to see me xiao peng?
i just need to wait till friday ends and boo!
no more work for the next 1-2 week!
FINALLY A BREAK FROM WORKING.
nobody knows how tough it is for me but no!
i shall not whine about trivial stuff like this!
and yes, i'm a bit hyper.
all thanks to school:D
heyhey yvonne lin and tan yong ming i cant wait to see you people!

2009-02-06T00:06:00.002+08:00

i'm finally back!
after tomorrow i'll be in full blast!
i be back to post more soon!
WATCH OUTTT!

2009-01-25T01:23:00.002+08:00

HAHA just camwhored with yongming at market.
YES JUST.
haha now posting the pictures up cause im toooooo boreeed~
and there's internet connection!:D

2009-01-23T00:09:00.001+08:00

and if there was a happy ending for everyone;
why isn't there one for me?

2009-01-22T00:00:00.002+08:00

was i like that the way before?
did i treat you like this before?
why are you doing this to me now?
i'm not sure whether you know it or not,
but i'm very hurt by your words.
i'm sensitive,
and i'm not sure whether you even know that about me.
so what if i'm always cheerful?
does it means you can just stab me down?

why do people always do this to me?
i'm not sure whether you even know it yourself.
you can speak about my flaws,sure.
talk to me about it,sure.
make me feel bad,sure.
tell others that you'll end up like me(whatever bullshit),sure.

what i hate is your stupid childishness,
stupid words.
hurting people right in front of them and shame them right in front of others in the public.
i cant tell you how upset i'm feeling.

you'll probably never know it anyway,
since you are SOOOO perfect now.
blessed with whatever crap you have.
ireallyreallydislikeyou.

mark my words you FEMALE DOG.

2009-01-20T13:36:00.003+08:00

Rest In Peace, my friend.

How long has it been since we last talked?
2 years?
3 years?
maybe more?
Even though we haven't been in contact for so long,
i still remember you.

You as the shy boy in class,
You as the guy with a dark sense of humor,
You who always get teased by us.

However it was all pleasant memories;
for i really don't remember any negative ones.

Your death came as a shock to me,or rather,to all of us.
However what's done cannot be undone.
If there is any injustice you suffered,
rest assured - we will dig out the truth.
We will do whatever it takes.

Please do bless us in whatever that comes our way.
I will always remember you,
remember our pleasant memories.

Love,
Kai Ting

2009-01-18T20:06:00.002+08:00

i guess the matter has really blown out of hands.
am i in any position to say anything though?
can i say something?

lets chill okay.
we know that we are all so worked up because we're talking about MONEY,
the root of all evil.
its not good to destroy your friendship over money.
you guys have been friends for so long,
longer than my friendship with you two.

accusations and whatsoever,
i believe,
was only in a fit of anger and impulse.

if we just keep our cool and talk this out,
everything can be solved.
lets not fight anymore,okay?

i LOVE you guys,
and i really dont want you ppl to be like this.
PLEASE.

2009-01-17T00:12:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH PENG!(:

thanks for being there for us for this whole year.
thanks for taking acre of us always,
thanks for always scolding us when we need it,
thanks for being like a big brother,
thanks for being such a lame joker.
poly life couldnt be fun without you.
you know our clique LOVE you!(:
many thanks,god bless.(:

2009-01-16T00:24:00.003+08:00

to PRIS and KARYAN:
OMG i cant believe you guys still come and check out my blog.
its like so dead alr.
okay thanks anw.(:

anyway, studying like mad for my japanese lessons now.
the teacher teaches so fast!and it is only the first lesson!
dang i knew i should have continued taking from last year and not wait for a whole new year,now i have to restudy everything again.
listening to japanese songs does help to make studying easier though.(:
and stupid taka say its easy.
hmph, of course its easy you idiot,you are a japanese and im just a stupid dumbdumb singaporean.
whatever,i need to get my ass back to studying soon.
カタカナ大嫌い！

2009-01-13T15:47:00.001+08:00

slacking in work right now.
suddenly feel so aimless,
so useless.
want something to fill my mind up right now.

fandomsucks.
suckstobeme.

2009-01-12T02:35:00.000+08:00

NEW YEAR,
NEW START,
NEW LIFE.

flying off with my♥ on 1st april.
don't need anyone to send me off.(:
its okay as long as my♥ is there with me.(:
coming back on 6th april.
short trip due to ♥ and mine budget probs.
mostly ♥'s prob.(:

i've finally decided to settle down.
isn't it good?

♥,
kaiting.

2008-11-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

NO.
NOTHING'S GONNA BE NORMAL ANYMORE.
YOU CAME BACK.
YOU CAME BACK.
BACK.

WHY IS HEAVEN SO CRUEL?

2008-09-19T22:54:00.000+08:00

okays.
i guess i wont be blogging for a period of time.
on hiatus.
nothing much,but since like 95% of my post nowadays are all EMO posts,
which frankly speaking, i DONT LIKE at all.
so until i feel better and is much more clear-headed,
i wont be blogging.(:

spare you ppl from the torture of emo posts.

the next time i m back,you will be erased.

2008-09-13T23:54:00.000+08:00

the warmth i felt,
was so real,
that i really thought,
you were there.

then suddenly the coldness slap down,
and i realise,

IT WAS ONLY A DREAM.

i almost cried.

2008-09-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

funny talk me and yang meng had today.

ME:"who's your ideal wife?"

YANGMENG(without hesitation)immediately replied:"******"

he didnt even like think for a second or blink or look away okay!

was super funny.:D

2008-09-01T01:51:00.000+08:00

):

mend my broken heart;
anyone?

still miss you,
my dear.):

2008-08-29T23:03:00.000+08:00

IT'S REALLY THE END

can someone cheer me up please?
this horrible news you left me,
was not a relieve.

IT WASNT SUPPOSE TO END THIS WAY.

i can still remember your shy face,
your cute video,
your funny words,
your funny sense of humor.

i miss you telling me about your days,
your dog,
your soccer matches,
your sister,
your brother.

it doesnt matter if we cant really communicate,
cause after so long,
i finally realise.

i still need you.
come back into my like.

TKK.

i will always be waiting.):

2008-08-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

its over.
its really over.
you block me out of your life.
WHY?
WHY DIDNT YOU EVEN SAY GOODBYE?
WHY??

i'm heartbroken.
heartbroken.
goodbye my love..

2008-08-28T00:51:00.001+08:00

okays!i've been missing the past few days cause...
went around SPORE with JAPANESE ppl from KINKI district.
had a fun time!:D

went to the airport and welcome them.
then on the way to the hotel on the bus..
the spore members were asked to sit tgt with the jap delegates!
ZOMG tat time only got 3 of us on board.
haha so i sat with...

TOMOMI!
my first friend made!
haha was so funny i was very shy to talk to her she also very shy to talk to me.
so i started my usual crap and started talking.
but only,this time it was in jap!
omg i m so glad she could understd me!:D
thn talk talk and made another new fren!

MIZUKI!
then reach hotel..
they went to put their lugguage down and then off we went~
to RAFFLESCITY to have dinner~
so i brought them around(4 girls)
and they wanted to eat noodles!
so off we went,
handmade noodles~
thn when we settled down,
they started taking photos of the food.
SO CUTE.
haha.and ME the clever, went to bought laska and let them try..
amazingly they like it!:D
then eat finish..
hotel sweet hotel!
last photo of day 1..

DAY 2
okays!
was almost late-.-
went ard visiting red cross home for disabled and blood bank and alot of places!
so these were the photos..
new friends made!

KANA! i told her that her name is a veggie in spore!haha and she asked me whether it was delicious..fortunately i like to eat "kana" so i told her i LOVE it,\.wahaha.she loves black eye peas man,

YUKA!she comes from the same school as mizuki and if you watched SLAMDUNK,you would have heard of the sch KAINAN.and yes,she and mizuki study in KAINAN.

KOTOE!she's the youngest at 12 yrs old!and really cute!LOL and her behaviors*faints* are like those of anime character!quoted by stephen sir:"she floats away shyly".LIKE WTH?!lol.

DAIKI!omg this guy is a joker man.and i really got to know him closer soon enough to fight with him.:X

YUIKO!she went to the mt.fuji international meeting last yr!i dont rem tho.:x wah anw her el is really gooood!

thenwent back to hotel,
they changed into their yukata and went to the sch visit!

was just fun and more fun.:D
dont feel like elaborating!aha.
then took photos with everyone except for TAKUMA and YUIKO.
sorry!haha.

KOTOE

HITOMI

MAC-CHAN

MIZUKI

YUKA

TOMOMI

MEI.okay this pose was because she said this is traditional jap pose.i have no idea either.ahah.

DAIKI and MAC-CHAN

MEI and KANA.

ZOMG THERE'S STILL MORE TO GO BUT I WILL STOP NOW.
tired~
ahah continue my day 2 tmr!(:

2008-08-25T22:54:00.000+08:00

you.
YOU
you,
the idiot,
the asshole.

you have just ruin our relationship.
you know what?

you are just a piece of shit craving for fame.
now you got it,
you are flaunting it like nobody's business.

may retribution fall on you soon.

I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU.

2008-08-19T23:22:00.000+08:00

okay ms ng kai ting is happy today.
she has finished her exams and went out to have fun today!
sth unhappy happened ytd n i wanted to blog it out but later okay..
now i gonna blog about my outing with yongming!!:D

pictures(:

wahaha.went to jp and he went to !!(secret).
then ate subway(:
and bought the balloons and tape and off we go!!to ps!(:
went to HQ to collect my cert and set off to ps~
blah so lazy to blog la mus chiong my draft for ym n cl!!
bb!

2008-08-18T01:34:00.000+08:00

tmr is the last paper!
has lots of stuff plan out for hols!!:D

thanks to caiying,phin and the team for your understanding.
i will do my best to recover soon and join back.
thanks for the concern.(:
NPDB lai ah!

2008-08-17T01:51:00.000+08:00

its okay i think.
i am fine.
not disappointed anymore.:D
have learn to live with it.

right now i have to study hard for ppcm,
and save my money if i really want to get my feet in japan next year.(:
$5000 isnt exactly a little amount right?
paying everything by myself sucks .
but at least i am not spending off my parents.(:

want to go to new zealand soon to visit alix!
miss her so much!

(haha okay if you are thinking i am so fricking rich i'm so not,its jus a wish.)

okay went mad with qian n chelle before cdev exam on fri.

bye guys.gotta study:)
全部が忘れて。。

2008-08-15T20:32:00.000+08:00

despite what pipi,michelle and wq says,
i think things not going the way i want tho.
):
i'm very upset cause i cant figure out ur thots,
and you always disappoint me.(or is it because i'm just so dumb?)

this thing,
its driving me crazy.

2008-08-15T00:08:00.000+08:00

okay am having a headache now.
pipi says it cause i memorise too much stuffs le.
brain inside exploding.
COOL.

and that idiot.
i waited for him but...
nvm.
tmr e exam jiayou bah everybody!:D

も一度。。

i'm shocked by the ways things have change;
but i guess its good in a way.
not good influence to me tho.

2008-08-14T01:50:00.000+08:00

cannot exactly understand what this is
its so weird
so is it the same?
omg someone please give me an answer

okay not long ago,like 20 mins ago,
someone from my block committed suicide.
and the ambulance left without the casualty.

why?

simple reason.
he's already pronounced dead.

why at this month of the year and this timing?
its 1.54 am now anyway.
argh and mum ask me not to walk past the area the person landed.
i walk home everyday will walk past there leh!

argh omg am feeling goosebumps now.
to whoever that had already left,
rest in peace.

2008-08-13T01:11:00.000+08:00

you've made me very happy.(:
more than i can ask for.
so can we stay like this forever tho?
i dun mind.(:

every day you envelop my thoughts
you're the first thing on my mind when i wake up
its been so long
this feeling

2008-08-12T05:42:00.000+08:00

if granted a chance,can you tear me into shreds?
i feel so terrible now.
can i tell you?
will i get over this?
i'm sorry,
but what i've said earlier to you were all lies.
the truth was YOU.

i know,
i cant tell you.
not now,
not later,
no chance.
will you give me the chance to though?

2008-08-12T03:27:00.000+08:00

did this and i find it so true!

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

people who really knows me well,
should know how true this is.
haha especially the part where it says i'm childish.
gosh you got to believe that over the last weekend,there's like 10 ppl saying that i need to grow up soon.
how true how true.

had a wonderful day with pipi today.
loves.(:

2008-08-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

never felt more happier.(:
these recent period of time was really bad for me,
but somehow i managed to pull through with the help of my friends.
had so much fun!
today was at the tcp finale n i brought yingying along.
omg had so much fun myself and felt very bad for neglecting ycubes but she was having as much fun as me laughing her ass off at us.
was glad she had fun and enjoyed herself with us.
had so much fun with them playing HOYKE! again haha.
after that met up with ky and catch up(:

yea so much happier now all thanks to hysc peeps,tim,tcp peeps n ycubes n ky.
meeting pris tmr:D
meeting chris soon!:DD

what more can i ask for?(:
bless enough.(:

2008-08-09T15:03:00.000+08:00

hello(:
ytd was a hectic day.
after lots of editing and etc,we finally finish the ITA!:D
thanks PS!
after that went home and ZzZz.
thn went to jp to meet tim!
omg tim still as pale as ever;
but more handsome i suppose.(:
watch the movie,
walked around and went home.
thanks tim!:D

okay next need to call chris le!(:

2008-08-07T02:50:00.000+08:00

Clarine:hey long time no see!:-D miss ya!
gwen:yo girl!it sucks.): hais..
psycho:yea la their brain got screw loose i think.
-PRIS:frogs-.-haha i know.-.-
Jy:hahadont say ppl name leh.:x
cl:yea hor ps mistake.haha.but he is dung leh how?
David:the gf no face on e first place le.haha.
ron:yea they sure are.how sad.):
teck loong:i noe.hail isnt e word dude.HATE is.omg!
alan:LOL.
-PRIS:smiling in progress.(:
AGNES:ps will do it soon!(:
rongxuan:and u nv gimme ur link!haha(:
what_thefcuk:i will but my kneeS are ver jialat.i miss u leh yoyo!add me on msn okay?
Li Shi:ya lo u go 飙车 with zhang lao zhi nv ask me leh!gimme ur no.!!
jerlyn:haha y surprising i good girl leh.:D
-PRIS:SORRY DEAR BUT WILL MAKE IT UP TO U!!

2008-08-06T20:25:00.000+08:00

i am STILL in self-denial.
I CANT BELIEVE I FORGOT ABOUT PRIS BD!
OMG LIKE WHAT AM I ?
I DONT EVEN DESERVE TO BE HER FRIEND.
i should be slaughtered.
forgive me pris.):

i still love you one you know?
i will make it up to you pris.
对不起我爱你。
愛してるよプリシラ！

2008-07-31T22:21:00.000+08:00

so many things have happen recently,and none are good things.
my mood is seriously dampen by all this stuffs.
however today is really different.
today is a really happy day,after so long.
met up with those really stupid friends of mine.
namely egg,steven,cons,ron,huan,reuben,zx,qing,yanjie,atiqah.
we are the craziest batch of hysc ever.(:
today they really brighten up my days with their stupid jokes and the lame stuffs they done.
and halfway,egg called chris and i talk to him.
felt really good hearing his voice.(:
miss chris!
must really thanks them for making me so happy;
was feeling really lousy with all these bad news.
i hope this happy feeling can sustain till tmr(:
will post our pictures after they send me(:

悲しみ。。

2008-07-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

woah so from reliable information. IT's gf is on the lease!(FYI,IT patch up with his gf.)
and so,in the I-LOVE-MY-BF-I-LIKE-HIM-TO-SLAP-ME mindstate. IT's gf attacked.

Here goes IT's gf post:
to all those fuckers who've been talking about me and royston:

"why don't all of you just PISS OFF and get on with your LAME FUCKING LIVES?! why the hell are you bothering about us. huh?! what's your fucking problem? nothing better to do is it?! lame asses oOo "

FIRSTLY,i must reprimand you of your vocabulary limitations. Is there no other word than f*** to use? Is your english that lousy? For me, i use to use f*** but now i use FROG.(creative huh)

SECONDLY,we are not bothering you. We have in no way,made any physical contact or verbal insults to YOU. What we are doing is just discussing about and expressing our unhappiness on some wrong actions. And mind you, we are not talking about your hugs and kisses BUT some WRONG actions that an animal committed.(oops i meant dung). So you prefer people to talk about your PDA is it? Its a wrong act and its definitely something that everyone can talk about.

LASTLY, its not that we had nothing better to do. You mean reprimanding someone of their wrong actions is WRONG? You mean its WRONG of us to scold someone because he used his fist?(i meant palm). I certainly do not think that way.

and so sorry, i love to scold dungs for their shameless act and i like to type it down cause it brings an awareness to our society that such dungs exist nowadays.indeed.

2008-07-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

i don't understand what has become of this modern society. Has it given animals the rights to slap human beings?Okay, so what happen was this animal(i'm not telling anyone its a dog),slap his gf in public.

Reason being? IT's gf was smsing another guy. Well bringing back some past, I use to go out with Ervin and gang being the only girl in the clique and how my bf at that time(okay,anson-.-) didn't mind or even say anything because he understands me.(and hello?Ervin's like my ex bf.)

So yeah see? I bet the animal couldn't contain the outburst of jealousy in himself when IT saw his gf smsing the other guyso IT slap her.Well i'm not saying its wrong to be jealous(in fact its good because its shows that you love your gf). However, IT express IT's jealousyin the wrong manner. And after that as everyone was reprimanding IT,as an animal with dignity and pride IT should apologise right? But no that's not what IT did. Instead, IT scolded everyone and degraded everyone to the pathetic position ITS in.Furthermore,IT mentions that IT likes to slap girls. Okay, slapping in an outburst of jealousy is one prob,LIKE SLAPPING GIRLS is another prob.

For more details please go to 4E3 BLOG and check out the tagboard history and see what IT write. By mentioning that it is not our prob when IT likes to slap girls is RIDICULOUS! So what i let you slap me?(or do you even dare hahaha). You mean i can just stand at the side and watch you happily slapping girls away?

Oh come on, be careful of what you are saying animal. If you say you like slapping girls is your prob, then i will say i like to scold and spam animals and its my prob. I like doing it(in fact i love it.).Got a prob now? And oops, i never did mention who that animal was in the first place. Oh well you don't even deserve to be called an animal, maybe dung? Yeah dung will do. So **** off dung we don't even know you in the first place so why did u say you know us?

OMG STOP TRYING TO CHEAT YOURSELF.YOU ARE MAD.WE ARE NOT YOUR FRIENDS./We don't have dung as friends!

ANYWAY LET'S VOTE PPL!
please tag at my tagboard if you think the dung deserve to be scolded. If you think he is so pitiful, do tag too! Want to know how people feel about dung slapping human beings.(:

2008-07-24T03:36:00.000+08:00

taggs!

Joycelyn:yepp sure soon.haha.xD
michelleDB:haha so obvious!!stalker!
what_thefcuk:lol cause of loads of things.dun worry la i not quitting db.
-PRIS:NEVER!just too busy!LOL.
michelleDB:wah then lidat i must update everyday wor.i try la u also never update everyday one.HAHA.

2008-07-24T03:33:00.000+08:00

woah back to update!
haha sorry was busy with projects and test!
oh and fri got play test i thurs still gg db leh.:D

just now cried like mad.
saw some video clips.:(
reminds me of the days in Japan and the farewell and everything.
*sighs*

memories are meant to be tuck away in one corner of our heart;
not meant to be forgotten,
but to remind us of the wonderful times we once had.

i'm glad i met you guys.
i'll never forget you peeps.(:

2008-07-17T02:31:00.000+08:00

dont want to be like this;
but it cant be help.):

i'm really weak
and to escape from the reality
i run away

i know i should stop running.
i aint really happy anymore

someone drug me with happiness,
PLEASE

i feel like quitting.

quitting is not an option;
it's a choice.

2008-07-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

-PRIS:LOL yea totally lulu pic owns.xD
Luting:omg lulu u must learn to relax!!
ERVIN:LOL I KNOW.i see the pew pew hahaha.
noel:thanks dear!(:
linglanglong:thanks dear(:
-PRIS:yes habiren!(:
weiqian:i will i will:D
ycubes:haha in the end also never meet dao sad..but nvm i will always think of u.xD
Min:haha sure sure!(:
yj:woah u MIA sioll!!which school you in?
KARYAN:YES IT IS.wahahaha.

hello earthlings!
yours truly is back with good health and everything!(except the phlegm that is;)
and sad to say..
MY PLANS ON SATURDAY ARE ALL RUINED!!
oh yes, because of that stupid flu.

because of that stupid flu,
i did not get to go to the first rowing session with seniors.
because of that stupid flu,
i did not get to meet yingying my dear and go to that so long awaited JAPAN FOOD FEST!
because of that stupid flu,
i did not get to meet my dearest VIPo9o8!(this is the saddest part):)

instead,
what do you think i do?
i ROTTED.

LIKE SERIOUSLY!
omg am so sad now gonna wallow in my sadness.
bb):

oh and before i go,

it's poh poh to say goodbye:D

2008-07-11T20:10:00.000+08:00

woah i am back for the second post of the day..
saw some people blogging about VIP and their sec sch life..
made me quite emo so i decided to blog it out too..(:

VIPo9o8
i am sure everyone will agree with me that this is one of the best things that have happen to us.(:

i remember at the start..
how i wanted to join VIP so badly..
how i had to join alone..
how i felt the passion dying after the various trials i went through..
how guoying ad evonne ma'am pull me back to the right tracks again..
how i join with little passion..

after the first meeting,i remember..
how much i started to dread..
how i feel like quitting..
how much i cant bear to part with my friends inside..
how timid and small i feel inside..

after the second meeting,i remember..
my groupmates being nice and understanding to me..
having a little laughter with them..
being closer to the whole VIP..
spending those nights without sleep to do up the proposals and everything..

after the camp, i remember..
how we pulled through everything together..
how no one gave up during the camp..
how everyone helped each other..
how we grow up in a matter of days..

i think no matter what i say is not enough to describe this batch of wonderful people.
you people help me get through one of the most difficult time of my life.
without you people,i wont be who i am now.
although i may be missing out on the events because my trg clash with it,
REDCROSS is still my main priority in my heart.
and YOU PEOPLE are the one who made RC my main priority.
i will rem how we never fail to make each other laugh like mad everytime i meet you people.
VIPo9o8 is <3
thanks to xinyu.(:
you were there when i was facing that hell of problems.
love you girl!

shall talk bout my sec sch life another day!(:

2008-07-11T12:59:00.000+08:00

hello i am back.):
see the sad face?
i m sick.*crys*
i have never catch a cold for a very long time already,guess now's my turn.
doc says my flu is rather bad;
partly due to the fact that i breathe in second-hand smoke.
so hello people,
stop smoking around me.
and my phelgm is brown in color;
awwwwwwwww~
my ears and nose are block tooo!

okay to make myself happier..

MY DARLING BOY!!(:

2008-07-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

これが最後のheartbreak..

went out with habirens the other day:D

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lulu's photo she taken WILLINGLY herself on my phone years back!:D

pris must be so happy i know:D

2008-07-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

as you can see,i'm making a consistent effort to blog(:
today trg was woolala;
i admire bobbie's courage!
i think i will never have the courage to do it.
so anyway bobbie's hair is love.
and a new girl zelda joined us today;
she sounded quite enthu so hope that she will stay.

people always come and try then leave.
cant they even persevere?
okay just venting off some anger.

my crazy clique.(:

ah fa caught in the act whaha.

love(:

2008-07-07T16:22:00.000+08:00

fond memories:D

best friends forever!:D

i need no reason for my absence.

2008-07-05T18:53:00.000+08:00

君を彩る全ての要素を僕が守ってみせよう
何があっても側にいよう
君が悲しむ全ての要素を僕が奪うから
もう少しだけ愛を、愛を、愛を～

from Ryo's code.
how nice..

2008-07-05T17:50:00.000+08:00

2008-07-05T17:42:00.000+08:00

the nerd wearing the specs is my bestest pal in the whole wide world i swear.
went out with her to shop for the first time(in 4 years).
bought her a dress as belated bd present!hope she likes it(:
blow another 130 bucks myself.
gonna weep to death now;

2008-07-03T14:29:00.000+08:00

wtf(WHAT THE FROG)i realise two stalker from my clique posted my pictures on their blog.obviously i understd my popularity has been taken to new heights but however,i object!REVENGE!!

i shall take my revenge on the other stalker one day..MUAHAHA*EVIL LAUGHTER*

*edit*!!TAKE ME OUT OF THE PICTURE N THATS THE TWO STALKERS U SEE.

2008-06-26T23:36:00.000+08:00

want to run away..

today db trg was short n sweet(:
though i didnt do my ergo second set cause of my stupid knee):
then after tat stay back n do e surprise for e seniors(:
haha hope they like it when they see it tmr(:
spent alot of effort in it!
with ah fa,joyce and ah nier.
so tired..
reach home not long ago..
i stinks..
going to bathe(:

):
i wonder why i always feel this way nowadays..

2008-06-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

where were you when i needed you the most?
its not the first time,not the second time,but many many times.

come back,won't you?

2008-06-23T23:20:00.000+08:00

wanted to explode,
but somehow due to my limitations of vocabulary i think i'll give it a miss.

my life SUCKS now.
i HATE school.

2008-05-21T00:28:00.000+08:00

lets stop the pretense;
lets stop the act.

school's has started and alot has happen.

well then goodbye.

2008-04-08T00:49:00.000+08:00

happier post.

-met kaya n ycubes today.
-did my specs.
-pizza hut.
-orchard.

i bought two books and two cds.

well i dont sound happy.

2008-04-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

break up?

2008-03-28T03:46:00.001+08:00

stephen ah stephen..
are you asleep yet?
i want to disiao you.:x

2008-03-28T03:42:00.000+08:00

okay i'm back after 2 mins.
going to meet kangass,lulu and ade tmr!
kinda excited cause i really miss them.
well not kangwei:X.
anyway i jus rem sth.
ard 12am jus now my dad spotted sth flying round and round the sky!
its not an aeroplane and its not a bird you know.\
it jus keep circulating around my area and its pattern is fixed.
i took my not-so-good binoculars and erm thought it look like a UFO?
looks like a TAXI flying you know?
so cool~~
can i sit on it too?
randoming again.
okay i shall be back later again.(:

2008-03-28T03:31:00.000+08:00

hello people.
have decided to come to blog since i'm so bored.
its 3.32 am now.
*yawns*
not sleeping yet cause i'm waiting to call stephen ard 4 or 5 am to ask him to wake up and pee and make him piss.(:
haha random idea of mine.
lots of stuffs going on nowadays!
hmmm school's starting soon like next month 14th?
and..
i kinda dislike np now..
oops should be amari suki dewa arimasen.
ZzZ the jap character in my lappy is missing..
i want to type in JAP!!!
so tat i can talk and gossip about people i hate.
ahah how nice.my standard not there yet-.-.
well anw great news is afidah and sara's in the same course as me.
cool huh i got friends le?
so this sort of make up for not going to camp la.(:
and then this!

ralf!
he reached singapore on the 25th and he called me!
gosh was i happy to hear his voice.
and i met him on the 26th and took neos!
erm apparently its his first time cause they dont have tat in Brunei i suppose.
and another cool thing is he gets to visit Laos,Thailand,Malaysia and Japan!
F.O.C.
awww man i want that too.
donations anyone?
i shall sob now and post later.

2008-02-21T01:02:00.000+08:00

hi guys!
i know my blog is super not updated but sorry~
no time..
anw back to upload more photos:D

2008-02-12T01:32:00.000+08:00

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2008-02-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

my two best buds in japn!
they were the only peeps that bought me a present okay!
haha the left is takanori hashioka AKA my "papa".
the right is takuya matsuda AKA "momotaro"also known as peach boy.
lols cause the prefecture they came from is where the peach boy was originated from.
and thus the name for him cause of his chubbiness.lol!
omg i miss them sooo~ much.):

the first time i met papa!

erm they were role playing some really funny stuffs.
make me lmao you know..
lol..

wahhaa randoms.
these few are like 0.01% of the photos i have-.-.
well i will update soon cause ycubes constant nagging is even more powerful than my mum's.

2008-02-12T00:34:00.000+08:00

bwahaha i'm too happy for words now.
LOVE MY NEW BLOGSKIN!
massu~
aww~
haha gosh ignore me i'm sick..

haha that's my cute two timer~

who cares about eternity and forever if i can cherish what i have now?

2008-01-06T23:58:00.002+08:00

you are a liverpool fan,but you know that i like man-u.
so silly you bought yourself a man-u jersey and became a "two-timer".
you cute guy.

2007-11-21T19:12:00.001+08:00

yo peeps!japan is super cold now,and i have 1 week left to go!i dunwana go back singapore but its impossible.-.-.saw loads of handsome guys and pretty girls.and,as requested by some idiots,i`ve took photos of cute girls and handsome boys,making me look like a pervert in the street and high school.but i tell you,i almost fainted when i had to stand in front of 3 all boys classroom making introduction!so handsome sia!almost..almost..alomst fainted.haha.in front of 90 boys man,woah!haha dun be jealous ying ying.and i took over 1000 plus pictures le.pls applause.i will post another day,hopefully by tmr.haha so pls be patient and wait!

2007-11-06T23:37:00.000+08:00

I GOT A SUPER GREAT COUSIN AND I LOVE HIM TILL CRAZY!

haha it's MINGEST!

you know he's really super kind,allowing me to bring his precious PSP to japan jus to let me play it on the airplane sia.he even agrees to lend me his laptop to bring over you know!but i scared i will spoil it so i never borrow it.haha where can you find a cousin this nice to you man?!?(:(:(:(:

2007-11-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

well i figure i better come back to blog before my blog decompose.so e Os are finally over!(last paper tmr-.-),but lets take it that its over.haha.will be gg out with AIYA!CLAN on friday and steamboating tmr with y cube and kaya!yeah eat till my jaw drop!!haha.but still left tonnes of stuffs undone for my japan trip.someone help me please..-.-

2007-10-30T18:32:00.001+08:00

LOVE THIS PV~!

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